Accumulations

We all think we are the most superior species on the planet. God has created various animals - herbivores, carnivores, omnivores. We have the predator - prey hierarchy. We have a food chain. And I think man sits at the top of the food chain and top of the animal hierarchy.  What makes us special? What makes us sit at the top? 

The basic need for survival is food. Other animals either kill or are killed for food. But humans can choose whether they want to kill or not. Humans can cook and add flavors to food. But we didnt stop with flavors and cooking. We started wearing clothes and building houses for ourselves. Here, I must say we surely are superior. But then we started marking lands, we started acquiring wealth and riches. Not just food and water but we started thirsting for money, wealth and property. For our shelter we need a home but why do we need many houses? Guest house, farm house, leased out house etc. When the animals die, they die. They dont seem to fight to leave their mark on the planet. But we humans dont want to stop with death. We accumulate wealth and leave it behind for our offsprings. Whats the point? We cut down forests, snatch away the natural habitats of animals and cage them in zoo. Why? because we sit at the top of the hierarchy.

The animals fight to survive. But their fights are limited to the herds of their territory. We humans fight not just for survival but also to satisfy our ego. We find reasons to fight over caste, creed, region and religion. Our fights span across countries. I wouldnt be surprised if we decide to wage a war with martians some day. 

We think. We analyze. We invent. We invent machines and gadgets to simplify our life but destroy the eco-system. We want an easy life, but end up in messing up others' lives. We are top of the hierarchy, because we drew the hierarchical chart. Because we forgot the basic fact that true bliss is in co-existing with nature but not in modifying, manipulating or destroying it. Thus we are trying to dominate nature and are investing time and money in inventing are re-inventing technologies. We have messed up our life styles and have complicated our lives to the extent that we cannot live without our ACs, automobiles and many other gadgets paving way to various diseases. We have dominated nature to the extent that the very air we breathe in every second has turned into poison. Lets not forget that we are part of the nature and by being indifferent to it, we are calling our own doom.

2017 - A Restrospection

Another year down. Another year old. Lot of learnings. Testing, depressing, rewarding. Lets get started.

I started my year being a SAHM and ended up as a working woman/mother. I have heard many people say many things, giving varying opinions on whether a mom should work or not. Amidst all this, I got my much needed break and time off from my multi tasking life this year. But also learnt that anything slower than the rat race doesn't go well with me. So got back to the race.  All my life I was striving to the best at whatever I did. But now I just want to be a good mom. And I am mighty scared I might fail.

Talking of my son. He has started going to school this year. Has acquired a bicycle, scooter and bike. He speaks telugu fluently though not clearly. He has started showing his true colors in school. Though he has made many friends at school, he doesn't want to go to school and cries every single day we dress him up to school. His favorite kitchen set and my kitchen utensils are long forgotten. Automobiles are currently trending his heart. At present, he is the most pampered and spoilt kid I have ever seen. I hope to change that in the coming year and will need all the luck in the world to favor me. He likes watching tom and jerry, zool babies and other such cartoons on youtube. Something that has to be minimized in the coming year. A great fan of ice cream, chocolates and sweets and drives me nuts when comes to healthy eating. There were many instances when the mentally and physically exhausted me broke down in front of my son. On one such instance on failing to refrain my son from fiddling with the electric plug points, I started sighing and crying so much that my husband started reprimanding my son as to why he made me cry. The confused kid didn't have an answer. The poor guy thought I was crying because he was having the time of his life. Oh boy! just writing about it gives me goose bumps.

I was way liberal with my son this year. But its high time I concentrate on disciplining him. My husband has partnered with his friends and opened up an ice cream store this year, finally finding a valid reason for ignoring me. Talking of my career. It had been a unique experience attending interviews. Not because I was facing interviews after a gap of 7 years but due to the prejudice the interviewers had for a working mother. Though the technical questions changed from one company to the other, one question remained common. That was "How will you manage office when you have a baby?" I believe that was the major reason I was rejected couple of offers. But there are few people who are not very judgemental about a working mother's capabilities. And I am thankful to them that I have a job now. It is not about the money. But the feel of coming out of the shell, pushing your brain to think beyond the household chores. Waking up in the morning and looking up to a new challenge or learning at office. Above all, making awesome friends at work. At this point, you must be thinking can women be friends? And my answer is, atleast I have many female friends who are very helpful, supportive and suggestive. For example, I told them that I have five white leggings which are turning yellow. Though they did not have a solution for it, they had the heart to reflect my concern unlike my husband who turned a deaf ear. 

I had many resolutions for the year. All of which lay successfully broken. Let 2018 be a fresh beginning for a new set of resolutions (to be broken or kept? lets see). Another year of madness awaits..